Thoughts of a hopeless-sex-crazed-romantic

i dont even know what to name this post.

This post will be in the ultimate form of rant because I don’t know how to organize my thoughts about what is going in my life. BUT I would like to point out that I am completely and hopelessly boy crazy!

Basically I don’t know what happened last week but everything seems to have changed. I stopped talking to the boy I was seeing (written about in my previous posts).. and somehow started talking to my ex boy (the compassionate-less one) who I have been ignoring for two months. And when I say started talking to I mean spent two nights at his house this weekend. And when I say I spent two nights at his house I mean I finally ended the two month celibacy streak..which is funny because he was the last person I had sex with. The sex was alright… well I mean it was good but I was drunk + on my period..and well you can just imagine. We stayed in all of the next day and just cuddled/studied. And had a quickie before I left after the second night.

I feel like I’m not enjoying him the way I used to. After all the shit that went on between us throughout the past year I finally thought we were over …and now I don’t even know what the fuck is going on. Now when he tries to do the nasty things I used to enjoy to me.. they just don’t feel the same. I don’t feel like I’m all IN it anymore.

UGH. I thought writing about what’s been happening to me the past week would make sense of things but they just seem like minuscule and silly matters. I guess everything feels crazier when you’re going through it than when you write about it later. But I don’t know.. I just feel like there are so many boys and I love em and hate em all!

rant complete? xo!

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